Saturday, December 16, 2017

Advent is About Waiting

Per Wikipedia, "Advent is a season observed in many Christian churches as a time of expectant waiting and preparation for the celebration of the Nativity of Jesus at Christmas as well as the return of Jesus at the second coming. The term is a version of the Latin word meaning "coming"." 

Advent is about waiting.

Advent 2013 meant waiting for a baby to eat on his own, not through a tube. Waiting for a biopsy and a surgery and an oncologist.  Meeting in a NICU room on Christmas Eve with doctors waiting for a daily update for the 3 lb infant Joseph and a prognosis for my wife who was holding him.

2016 Advent meant waiting for a gift to arrive, cookies to bake, sitters to come and celebration at church. It meant having the time and luxury of crying when the tenor hit the high note in Oh Holy night and celebrating that we had the energy to make it this far. It meant giving the toddler who couldn't eat on his own three years ago an extra gingerbread cookie just because you can, and both of you feeling so happy because he can eat it and ask for more and you can share that moment..... because you're all alive.

2017 This year it's the comfort of having made it to a place where the decorations are up, the kids are surrounded with fun traditions like elf on the shelf and advent calendars, and celebrating Advent the way I grew up, with candles in a wreath.  It's about waiting with joy for parties and knowing that our children are having memories of a fun advent season with both of their parents.

This year the discomfort of waiting isn't mine.  This year it's feeling heaviness for a friend who had to evacuate fires in California, had to pull her child, wife, and parents away from their home, and had to remain connected to her physical church and church flock during advent....now waiting with the hope of returning home to a house and church with smoke-filled air, in hopes of preparing for Jesus before he arrives on Christmas night.

Advent is about waiting. And being alive through the comfort and discomfort of the season. 

Wishing you peace through whatever form of waiting you're in. 

Thursday, July 27, 2017

A Letter to the Boy Scouts of America

July 26, 2017

Dear Boy Scouts of America (BSA) Leaders,
I’ve spent 25 years (off and on – no exaggeration) discerning whether I would have my sons attend BSA or not, and whether I would want to give of my family’s time, talent, and treasure to support you. In the past few years I’ve concluded that I would.
When you re-open your office tomorrow morning, what are you going to tell me, and countless other parents, about your reflections from President Trump’s speech at the Boy Scout Jamboree? What are you going to tell me about your values and morals that would make me want to sign on with BSA?
Your initial response to President Trump’s speech was unacceptable and underwhelming.
Tomorrow morning pretend you’re a minister on Easter Sunday or Christmas Eve. Pretend that you have an important message to get across. Pretend that your organizations future depends on it. Why? Because it does.
Tomorrow morning, before your staff and volunteers open the BSA doors again and get slaughtered, make a statement that informs us, impresses us, and brings back our faith that you’re the strong organization with good values that you’ve proven to be for so many people.
Kind regards,
A Concerned Mom of Two Future Scouts

Friday, May 5, 2017

Face the Music

A friend shared this song with me 10 days after my youngest son was born and right when my spouse was diagnosed with cancer.  I told her I'd listen to it when I could listen to music without getting emotional......my son is 3 1/2.....and I listened to the song this morning.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uLtyzRgmyI

I couldn't listen to music for a while after my mom died back in 97. Even going to church, especially going to church, was a crap shoot. I'd hear one of her favorite hymns, get choked up, and the tears would start rolling. Within a few years I worked myself back to music...and back to church....and had a good season of listening, performing, practicing, etc. I even took a few fiddle lessons.

So I went through a musical drought again three years ago.  In the last few months I've been listening to music, we added a piano to our home - in order to keep the music growing - and I've been playing the violin as part of my stand up comedy gigs - another new thing.

Today I'm excited to wake up to the fact that I've come through the drought, my ears and heart are open, and I'm facing the music without even thinking about it.

As Mary Chapin Carpenter says,
"I'm not running
I'm not hiding
I'm not reaching
I'm just resting in the arms of the great wide open
Gonna pull my soul in
And I'm almost home."